From September 18th 2012

Sovereign over real life

Real life is messy and busy and hard. It’s a truth, but not an uncomfortable one—actually once you accept it and settle into it, it becomes a comforting rhythm. I have three tests, a lab, and a paper all due within three days of each other. I have other random homework assignments. I have friends with broken ankles and messed up backs that I want to take care of. I have relationships to build and maintain, an apartment to clean, a dentist appointment to make, not to mention learning how to drive and seeking fellowship with my Father.

It’s real life. It’s really busy. It’s a little messy. Some days, it’s kind of hard.

But I’ve been reminded over and over again that I am called to come and die: to my pride, to my time, to my own paltry strength and self-interest. I am called to walk boldly into the impossible for “The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent (Exodus 14:14)” and “You have given me the shield of your salvation, and your right hand supported me…You gave a wide place for my steps under me, and my feet did not slip (Psalm 18:35-36).” 

Today, for this season, I have been called to live in Jackson, Tennessee, with it’s charming old-looking storefronts, it’s Rockabilly roots, and it’s broken and marginalized society. I have been called to pursue knowledge with passion at Union University and prepare to be a God-honouring nurse wherever He would send me next. I have been called to seek His face and His Word and fellowship with His church here, as well as seek the broken, lost, and cast-off in order to proclaim the Gospel and give myself up in service. If that’s not messy, hard, and busy I don’t know what is. But in the midst of the whirlwind there are moments of peace like this. Where I am able to sit still and feel keenly that my life is infused with purpose that I will not fully understand until I am in the Heavenly Kingdom. In this peace, I feel like I am a step closer to understanding the beauty of the Gospel and it’s implications in my life. He is so faithful to support us with gentleness, and tenderly guide us within the Impossible He has called us to.